Life is Short. Live it Well.

So, recently there have been a few deaths... Both of these deaths were young deaths. I'll spare the details and the names. But it kinda just hit me that death can happen to ANYONE. It is devastating when it happens to someone who is younger than 68 it seems. If a 40 year old dies it is said he/she was "to young"

Honestly, age has nothing to do with it. Age is a number. That's it. It's how you live your life that counts. Leave a legacy. That's what it's all about. It's about weather or not you jumped out of the plane when you got the chance. If you laughed and played when it was important. If you danced even though you know you're a horrible dancer. If you hugged when it was awkward. Things like that. Become the person you want people to remember. Be the you that you want to be. Someone people can run to, and not be ashamed. Be that person. And Don't be ashamed to BE YOU! Be you, and you will never regret a thing.

Life is short. So, live it well. Don't waste time. Keep busy. Leave your legacy. Never be afraid. Live. Follow the Light.

Your faithful writer AJ
To those who were lost. May your deaths not be in vain. Rest In Paradise, we will meet you on the other side. 

Take a step back.

Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...

Push play on This ^ before looking at the pics. :)

I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :) 

So...^ There's the bridge picture. :) 

Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...

That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)

I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.

And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.

 Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)

Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."

Life is amazing

Life is a Journey

And, we all look for our rainbows.

Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)

Your faithful writer A J.

I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...) 

So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)

Maleficent/ Date night

Ok, so On May 31'st my wonderful boyfriend took me to see Maleficent! This is awesome because we're both Disney fanatics. :) And it was AMAZING! I'm going to try not to spoil anything... But GO SEE IT!!!!!!!!

The amazing Disney people took this.... ^

And turned it into this...

And that's just amazing. The brilliance in the character is just amazing. I love the relationship that builds between her and Aurora, and the idea behind the whole movie.

So, just go see it. Go out and see it! I mean it. Do yourself a favor. 

Your faithful writer AJ

Why delete your life?

So… Everyone has a past. Right? And, obviously, there are going to be some things that you regret, and some things you enjoy. Some things you cry over, some things you rejoice over. Some things you get mad at, some things you laugh at. But all in all, we have each led a pretty decent life. Yes, some bad that you would like to regret. But still, not bad. As most of you well know, there was this guy: Who will stay "un-named". And he basically put my heart through a shredder. Am I grateful that he did now? Yes. Because I ended up with something much better for me. Anyway… That said, I'll continue on my rant. :) For some reason unbeknownced to me, my ex-boyfriends web sight popped up in my browser as my "Most viewed" ( Probably because I sank it to my old email, and everything is old on here ;) ) AAANNNYYYWAY!!!… I was curious to see if he had updated his sight since we broke up, so I took a look, and he had gotten rid of his blog. It was NOWHERE to be found. I even searched for it through "GOOGLE". But it was seriously NOWHERE!!! Anyway, I was a little distraught. I knew that he had a lot of his life saved on that thing. Not just our relationship. And this got me thinking. There is a lot of our lives on the internet nowadays. As you can see "here" . Anyway, I'm not against staying up in the times, or finding a new thing to absorb your time into. There's " Facebook, Twitter, Linked In, Pintrest, Google, Instagram, Flicker, MySpace, Tagged, meet up, Meet Me, and Classmates." (Just to name a few. ;) ) So… My thought is "If we are going to spend so much of our time investing in something on the internet, for the world to see… Shouldn't we at least have the common courtesy to not just let that part of our lives go down the drain with a click of a button? When I got dumped, the first thing my mom said to me was "Don't go through deleting things you will regret deleting." And that is some sound advice. That's a piece of your life. Don't throw it away. It's easy to delete something. Not so easy to get it back. And when I'm older with alzheimer's, I would like to look back at this blog and remember who I was, what I did, and who I was friends with. Even if the friendships didn't last long. I want to look back and think I'm friends with the whole world by logging into my Facebook, or whatever the new thing is that day. :P
I'm just saying… Isn't it kinda silly to work hard at something, and throw it away later?
It doesn't make sense to me. Why delete your life away?
Crazy.
Anyway… :P That's the rant today. :)
Your faithful writer   A J
Talk to you later!

All the new stuff!!!

Hey, guys! :) So... It's been a while, but I wanted to update you on stuff!!!

So... I got my tattoo...

Brand new Macbook Pro! :)

And Last but not least... My BOYFRIEND!!!!!

So.... Now that you're up to date... :P

Anyway, I'm getting ready for school... Buying clothes... Getting new SHHHTTTUUUUFFFF.... :P 

My parents are super understanding about everything :) I'm so grateful about EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

So, yeah! Be watching for updates, because it will be lots easier with the mac now. :)

Thanks for reading!! 

your faithful writer

AJ

The "Heck No!" Bucket list

This is a list of all the things I hope I NEVER do. Like... EVER! :P I was thinking about putting my bucket list, but I figure... That's boring. Why do I want to write about all the things that I want to do. But probably won't be able to do. Because, let's face it people... when you're actually rich enough to do most of the things on your bucket list, you're going to be so old that they won't even allow you to jump out of the plane thinking you're going to have a heart attack on the way down instead of pulling the string in order to survive.
Imagine that though! falling out of an airplane being the last feeling you ever feel... That's just terrifying. I don't know about some of you... But terror is DEFINITELY not the last emotion I want to feel! ( Side note. I'm not afraid of heights. I'm afraid of falling. I like to look out of the window at a plane, but I HATE the idea of "If I jump right now... I could meet Jesus today!" Lol. D: < But for real though...) I want to feel something my last moments on earth. But terror is not an option... hopefully.
 So, because of the fact that I think bucket lists are just a little cliche, here is my "Heck No!" Bucket List. Hope you enjoy!
1- I never want to commit murder. (This is just a "No-Duh!" thing not to do to lighten the mood. :) )
2- Have a baby in an elevator. ( But for real though... Picture this. Husband: " PUSH!!!!" Elevator: "Ding!" )
3- Watch the colorized version of "It's a wonderful Life" ( It's pretty as it is. Leave it alone.)
4- Take a flying leap... On a motorcycle... Off of a tall building... Into water... where there are rocks... who will crush the motor causing it to blow up... causing you to experience the two worst deaths possible... ( Burning and drowning... BUT AT THE SAME TIME!!!!)
5- Be so ignorant to something and not be willing to change you're opinion even though you admit that you don't really know anything on the subject. ( Even though I'm an american, and therefore lazy by nature. May I never be too lazy to accumulate knowledge into my thick skull.)
6- Name my children any of these. (The link takes you to a list of baby names that are utterly ridiculous. FINISH MY BLOG BEFORE YOU CLICK THE LINK! MINE IS FUNNIER! [I'll remind you to click the link at the bottom. :) ] Thank's for your cooperation)
7- Wear any type of sunglasses other than aviators. (lol... my face has such an odd shape, that's the only thing that works.)
8- Turn myself into a man... ( First off... I have a boy friend. And it'd be awkward. Second off, who does that to themselves on PURPOSE?!?!? Even if you think you're really a guy on the inside. I don't care. Just don't remove you're perfectly good "Sitting Down, Peeing Tool" And replace it with a "Standing Up, Squirting Machine" That's all I have to say about that.)
9- (If you're a guy) Turn yourself into a girl... ( First of... you have already learned to aim that thing perfectly! Why give that up?!?!?! Second off... Why trade your perfectly good "Standing Up, Squirting Machine" For a Boring "Sitting Down, Peeing Tool." Sitting is boring. Just keep aiming like your boy heart desires, and be happy.)
10- Spend $40 million on a broadway production of Spider Man, and expect it to not be one of the most horrible and sad things known to man. ( How can this not be bad?... Spider Man was awesome. Why ruin it? And that's saying something coming from me. I LOVE musicals... but superhero's and broadway don't really mix. More about that here.)
11- Get a tattoo on my face. (Tattoo's can be beautiful things... Don't get them on your face. Just don't.)
12- Get feathers. Implanted into my back. ( This is all that needs to be said. Don't look at this if you're under 14 )
13- Become so angry at anything and everyone so that I can no longer control myself.
14- Have an alcohol problem. (A beer or two here and there is ok (If you're old enough) But, don't run to it from your problems, or to make yourself feel better about the way you're living your life. It's not worth it. Fix your problems, you'll feel better.)
15-  Have this much time on my hands... no pun intended. :P
16- Be this skinny white kid. (Because that's just sad.)
17- Get stranded on an island where the cannibals live. (They eat the one's that aren't one of them first!!!!!!!!)
18- Never play hockey with a Canadian. (This is me.

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19- Drive down the freeway... In reverse... (Just a stupid Idea... But something you would NEVER do.)

20- Become a history professor. ( It's so boring to me... Knowing me we would all be sitting there in my class singing Christina Perri Covers. XD LOL. :) )

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed that! :) I think I did well. I would love to hear you're comments in the comment box!!!!! :D 

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Your faithful writer AJ 

See you later! :)

Some of you don't know me...

Hey, people... So, I decided to write a blog about me. Most of you know me as AJ I write this blog, that makes you laugh or whatever... :P But, my real name is Ayballin. I'm a teenager who adores music, God, and her family. Music is what I want to do with my life, and that's why I'm telling you this. :) Music is so amazing... You can speak through tones, instead of words. Or both.
Now, hopefully in the upcoming years, you will be able to hear my music on the radio. That is my plan, and my dream. And I will fight for it until it happens.
But, in order for me to do that, I'm asking for your help. I want you to look me up on youtube, and this sight called reverbnation. And become a fan, and if you like my music ( th music on youtube is much more recent) share it with your friends. I need as many people to know about me as possible. That's why I'm asking you for help. :) So please... Take the time to copy and paste these links, and listen to some videos, and read my bio on reverbnation.

www.reverbnation.com/breath4

www.youtube.com/user/myguitarandme95

Thank you SO MUCH!!!!
Please help me up my internet following...

I'm going to be writing blogs more and more frequently, now that my life is settling down ( alot) :)

Your faithful wirter AJ 
Thanks again!