Take a step back.

Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...

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I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :) 

So...^ There's the bridge picture. :) 

Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...

That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)

I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.

And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.

 Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)

Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."

Life is amazing

Life is a Journey

And, we all look for our rainbows.

Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)

Your faithful writer A J.

I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...) 

So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)

God made you, you.

Some people don't like who they are. The sad thing is, that God made these people! He doesn't care weather they had a good childhood or not. Whatever the situation is, He still made them, and loves them enough to die for them. No matter what it is that you do, you were made for a reason. And many, many people don't see it that way. Unfortunantly, there are many people who see themself as worthless, or incapable of things that they would like to do.
Something you should know about me, is that I am very artistic. Things like that just come natrually to me. Music, drawing, arts and crafts, that's just my thing. Then there are people like my boyfriend, who are very logical, understanding, and need a plan for every little thing! Not that this is bad. Don't get me wrong, I love the way my boyfriends mind works. I swear, just because of the way he is, his brain has a little section for everything he does! One section for math, one for science, one for logic, so on and so forth. Whereas mine is just strewn all over the place. Everything I think about has some conotation to something else, usually a song, or a piece of art that I have seen lately.
Now that I have officially spilled the way my boyfriends mind works... The point here is, that Everyone is different! The best thing is, that we are able to find the best in other people to ballance out the weirdness of ourselves. If I didn't have my logical friends around, I would be a crazy mess!
The point here is, that no matter how unhappy with you being the way you are, you might be. God made you, you for a reason. He doesn't make mistakes, so thank God you are who you are.
Thank you for reading this short little blog. I hope you noticed that this was a short blog, with a powerful message. Thanks again for reading! Your faithfull writter A J :)
Thanks again! 

Past, Present, and Future... and important topic.

Before I get started on this blog, I would like to warn you, that if you believe in Evolution you will not enjoy reading this. But, please don't stop reading. This could be vital to your existance. I don't usually go spiritual on my blog, but I felt it necessary. I pray that if any of you who read this are not believers, you would come to understand the gift that is offered to you by God himself. And if you are a believer reading this blog today, please pray that God would use it for his glory. Thank you.

 One thing about Time is, we don't know how much is left. The Lord could come back any second, He might drop down while you are reading this blog! But, the other thing about time is, we do know how much we HAVE had. I am going to take a stand here, and many of you won't like it. The world is not, I repeat NOT millions, or billions of years old. Evolution is disproved in the simple statement that "There really is no true way to age dirt." And that is what they do. They spend their days aging dirt. They have not found any true example of the "missing link" If we have bones from everything else... Why is there a "missing link"? There sholudn't be a link that is missing. We have bones of things that are not even in existance anymore. I would like to share some verses with you: Genesis 1:21-25 "So God created the great sea creatures and every living thing that moves, with wich the waters swarm, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to his kind, and God saw that it was good. And God blessed them and said "Be fruitful and multiply, fill the waters in the seas, and let the birds multiply on the earth." And there was evening and there was morning the 5th day. And God said "Let the earth bring forth living creatures according to their kinds-Livestock, and creeping things and beasts of the earth, accrding to their kinds." And it was so. And God made the beasts of the earth according to their kinds and the livestock according to their kinds, and everything that creeps on the ground according to it's kind. And God saw that it was good."
Now, I would like to take you through this passage. Obviously I take every word of Scripture to be true. Even the "and"'s, and "the"'s are there for a reason. The first part is clear to say the least. "God created the..." It doesn't say that "God made an explosion, and BOOM! Everything was in existance. God molded, and made every creature. I would also like you to notice that it says "according to their kinds." If you are a human. ALL of your relatives have been, always were, HUMAN. If you are a dog, ALL of your ancestors are DOG'S! Same goes for any other animal on the earth. Do you really want to believe that you have no more right to live than a monkey? If you came from a monkey, you should have no more rights than one. This is where I would like to share with you the glorious news: Genesis 1: 26-27 "Then God said "let us make man in our own image. And let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the heavens, and over the livestock, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth." And God made man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them." WOW!! That is amazing... We are made in God's image!  How glorious is that? God loves us so much, that he made, and formed us to be like Him! Then, if that wasn't good enough, he gave us dominion over EVERYTHING!!! This is a reason to be good caretakers of what God has given you, because he has given you a lot. Esecially if you live in america. If you are reading this blog right now, and have access to internet at your home, you are pretty well off. Internet is not a necessity, many people go without it every day! And live to tell about it! (sorry, rabit trail... hopping right back...) We DO mean more than the average monkey! And not because we have "evolved more" But because God gave us that authority! So, while we sit here on our high and mighty thrones, imagining ways to explain how this all happened without God, because we are so awesome, I think He is up there laughing at our explanations.
I think we should start introducing ourselves using our geology lines... How far back do you think I would have to go till I hit Mr. P. The Monkey? 1,000 years? 10,000? 100,000? That's funny, because the earth is really only about 8-9,000 years old. 10,000 at the oldist. We don't have billions of years to work with. If you want to trust in a rigged aging machine, be my guest. I'm here to tell you that it really is rigged.
They found a dinosaur bone, that still had blood cells on it! Bet you they don't tell you THAT in your science books. They had to admit that it couldn't have been all that long ago when that animal died, and since they are telling every-one that Dinosaurs have been extinct since before people came a long, and since they say that we have been here for a REALLY long time, their evaluations were not matching up.
We are made in God's image, on the 6th day of the worlds existance. Adam sinned and messed up the heaven that God had in store for us, in the garden of Eden.
I hope you know that I am saying all of this in Love, and Mercy. I am not saying that I don't love you, or that God doesn't love you because of what you believe. I'm saying (rather bluntly) that you are incorrect. Please, pick up a Bible, and see what it has to say. Don't believe it because I say it's true. Rather, find for yourelf that it is true. I promise you that, you will find SO much evidence in favor, that it is hard to reject this truth. If you are interested, you might look up Answers in Genesis. They have a lot of great material on this subject!
But, either way. If you were interested or not, I'm happy you got to the bottom :) Thanks for reading this intimidating, super long, blunt, blog. I hope that even if you were offended you wont stop reading this blog. Thanks again for reading! Your faithful writer AJ 
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Allergy Season... AGAIN!!!

Ok... I love the weather this time of year, I really do... And I love God because He made this weather for us all to enjoy... But can't we have just one year without whatever it is in the air this time of year that makes my nose itch, and my head feel like it's exploding?
What is this about allergies anyway? Why do we insist as people to be alergic to things? Personaly I think that this is part of what happened after the Fall, I don't think there were ANY allergies in the Garden of Eden. Why would God do that to his perfect creation, until AFTER we became sinners? For some reason, runny noses, and stuffy nasal passages are NOT very pleasent, or happy things... If you know of a person who just shouts for joy when he/she has a runny nose, please let me know who this amazing person is. Then I can talk to him/her, and find out why on earth they ENJOY something this awful.
Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that allergies are the worst thing that could ever happen to a person. Nor am I saying that I am going to curl up in a corner and die because I have allergies. But, I will say that I am not happy about allergies... And I don't think I ever will be. But, I shouldn't compain as much I guess. The runny nose is a form of protection against the germs in the air, and the explosive head is a result of the runny nose. So, I guess God is still looking out for me, even when I'm sick! :)
Thanks for taking time to read this short blog. I hope you enjoyed it, and spend a lot of time laughing at me complaining about allergies! :P
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