So, recently there have been a few deaths... Both of these deaths were young deaths. I'll spare the details and the names. But it kinda just hit me that death can happen to ANYONE. It is devastating when it happens to someone who is younger than 68 it seems. If a 40 year old dies it is said he/she was "to young"
Honestly, age has nothing to do with it. Age is a number. That's it. It's how you live your life that counts. Leave a legacy. That's what it's all about. It's about weather or not you jumped out of the plane when you got the chance. If you laughed and played when it was important. If you danced even though you know you're a horrible dancer. If you hugged when it was awkward. Things like that. Become the person you want people to remember. Be the you that you want to be. Someone people can run to, and not be ashamed. Be that person. And Don't be ashamed to BE YOU! Be you, and you will never regret a thing.
Life is short. So, live it well. Don't waste time. Keep busy. Leave your legacy. Never be afraid. Live. Follow the Light.
Your faithful writer AJ
To those who were lost. May your deaths not be in vain. Rest In Paradise, we will meet you on the other side.
Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...
Push play on This ^ before looking at the pics. :)
I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :)
So...^ There's the bridge picture. :)
Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...
That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)
I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.
And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.
Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)
Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."
Life is amazing
Life is a Journey
And, we all look for our rainbows.
Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)
Your faithful writer A J.
I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...)
So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)
Ok, so On May 31'st my wonderful boyfriend took me to see Maleficent! This is awesome because we're both Disney fanatics. :) And it was AMAZING! I'm going to try not to spoil anything... But GO SEE IT!!!!!!!!
The amazing Disney people took this.... ^
And turned it into this...
And that's just amazing. The brilliance in the character is just amazing. I love the relationship that builds between her and Aurora, and the idea behind the whole movie.
So, just go see it. Go out and see it! I mean it. Do yourself a favor.
