Take a step back.

Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...

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I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :) 

So...^ There's the bridge picture. :) 

Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...

That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)

I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.

And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.

 Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)

Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."

Life is amazing

Life is a Journey

And, we all look for our rainbows.

Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)

Your faithful writer A J.

I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...) 

So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)

When God writes a love story.

"True love waits." Ok, it's a cute idea and everything... But, does that guy really exist? It's so "fairytale" Isn't it? It could never happen to me! Could it?

Yes. It can! 

You're thinking "Wow, wow... Slow down. You're really giving a PURITY speech, on your blog?!?!? You can't be serious!" 

And, let me tell you now. This is not a purity speech. This is not a "If you have dated you're a sinner, and should never love again." speech. In fact... This isn't a speech at all. It's a blog. And, in all reality, I can talk as long as I want, about whatever I want, and you will read it because you think I'm funny, or entertaining. Or you're just bored and wasting time. That's fine too. DON'T GO AWAY!!! This is NOT a purity speech. This is me telling you that God has a great plan in your life, if you would just let him do it. You would be so happy. 

I am a Christian, I believe that God is in control of everything that happens. And nothing happens without him knowing it. You may think that you are doing what God has planed because He hasn't stopped you yet. Have you prayed about whatever is going on in your life right now? Or, are you just doing it because it "feels" right. Let me tell you about the most exciting thing that has happened to me in my life. 

So, my mom teaches dance lessons. There is a family, and they have been participating for a few years now. Every once in a while we would have a recital or something exciting. And of course, I would be there... Because my mom teaches the class. And every time, there would be this guy... I didn't know his name for the first year. Because, he never told me his name when he first met me. (I know now he was just nervous...) Time, after time. He would come back. I soon found out that his name was Ben, and we knew eachother existed. But nothing past acquantances. Recently, I had to find a card partner because my family LOVES to play cards... We have known eachother for 3 months, and 10 days. "But who's counting... ;)" Today, he made the big step. And asked my dad if he could court me. 

(Now, I know what you're thinking by "courting". But, really... it's no different from dating except that we have more boundaries, and our parents are very involved.)

My dad said "Yes." And now we are an official couple! Don't get me wrong. I have liked other guys. Ben is NOT the only guy I have ever had feelings for. It is not reasonable to believe that you will only like this one guy. God uses the feelings that you have to help you realize what it is He really has in store for you. And believe me when I say. You think that you can do pretty well on your own... You ain't seen nothin' yet! If you put your life into God's capable hands. He  will fulfill your life in every way that you need. It WILL be a fairytale. Or it will seem like one to you. I am happier than I have ever been. 

And it's not going to be perfect. We are both human, and make mistakes. But, if God is in control, He will help us goet throught them. And, we will have a beautiful relationship! 

Thank  you mom, for always telling me to wait. Thank you dad, for protecting me while I was waiting. Thank you God, for putting Ben in my life. And (last but not least) Thank you Ben, for even considering me. I hope I can match up to your standards. 

Thank you for reading this blog... I hope that you are encouraged as a single person, to wait for God to take control. And I hope you are encouraged as a non-single person, to thank God for what he has given you. 

Thanks for reading! Your faithful writer, A J.