Take a step back.

Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...

Push play on This ^ before looking at the pics. :)

I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :) 

So...^ There's the bridge picture. :) 

Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...

That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)

I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.

And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.

 Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)

Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."

Life is amazing

Life is a Journey

And, we all look for our rainbows.

Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)

Your faithful writer A J.

I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...) 

So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)

Life: Busy, and Wonderous

First off, I would like to say, that I love my life. Sadly, not many people say this anymore. A lot of people, are upset, and want to get their life over with instead of enjoying how much fun it really is! Think about this: Many, many people don't have a form of transportation. Do you have a vehicle for daily use? You are better off than A lot of people. Do you have a job, to pay the bills, and put food on the table? You are better off than a lot of people. Do you wake up each day, and breathe in relatively clean air? You are lucky to be waking up! Who knows when you're going to just not wake up one day? Do you get to have some sort of education? Did you know that there are more people in the world who cannot read this blog  than those who can? You being able to read what I have to say, puts you ahead academically of a major part of the population. So, reading that, is your life still that horible?   If you answered "yes" to any of these questions, you can count yourself lucky, and should be happy whith what you have. This doesn't mean that you should walk down the street feeling sorry for people who aren't as well off as you, or that you should think that you are so much better than any-one else. We are all siners, and have fallen short of the Glory of God. No-one has more of a "right" to live, or be saved, than the next person. If you start feeling better than another person, then you need to change your worldview.
I have had a wonderfull start of spring! Got to know new people, had a blast with people I already knew, and I have gotten myself into a friendship that I really enjoy, and I am very pleased with the way most of the situations in my life are right now. All in all, I am a pretty happy person! Mainly what I wanted to say here was, Life is a busy and wonderous thing! What really sadens me, are the people who don't see it that way. I hope everyone who reads this blog is happily busy! And I wish you all a great summer! I hope you make lots of plans, to start college, finish school, make a bucket list, or anything that you want to do! Whatever it is, do it! Have fun! As long as it is not immoral, unethical, or anit-Christ, Be busy, and have a wonderous life. Don't feel sad for yourself, instead look at all the things you have to be glad with! Count your blessings! You have this life, now live it.
Thank you for reading this blog! Please subscribe!!! :D Your faithful writer A J Thanks again, and have a great summer!