So... Today I'm going to write about one of my BIGGEST pet peeves... I want to get one thing straight... I use "lol" ALL THE TIME! That's not what bugs me. It's when someone thinks something is extremely hilarious... and types "Lolololololololololololol!!!" Like a million times... >:( ... Now, I realize you're thinking that says "Laugh out Loud! Laugh out Loud... etc..." which would be fine... But that would look more like this: LolLolLolLolLolLolLolLol!!!" Not that it's a huge difference... But when you type it "lololololololol!!!!" you're really saying "Laugh out loud out loud out loud out loud!!!" which... Is just really annoying. :P
Anyways... That's my rant on The whole "Lol" thing. :)
"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present." Have you ever heard that phrase? Or just a piece of it? It's pretty powerful, even though it's cliche... :)
So... Here's the story, I walked into work yesterday... This seems like a normal thing, and I thought it was. Have you ever just been going along in your business, and then...
Something comes up, and pretty much just slaps you in the face. You're going on your business... And... Well... It's kinda like this. Let me demonstrate with a few pictures...
The video has slight language in it, so just turn your volume down so you can see the wave hit!
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That.
That right there.
That is what it feels like.
Going along, minding your own business, and BAM! You're hit by a huge wave that you never expected... Anyway, along with the story. I walk into work, as some of you know that I play music On Friday and Saturdays at a place called Moon Dogs, I work for tips.... So, I walk in, and right in front of my face is my Ex boyfriend with another girl... Now, I'm just saying this so you know what happened... It was like a slap in the face that you never saw coming.... Anyway, it made me get thinking, and that's why I'm writing the blog. :)
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Believe it or not, that was all pre-blog story.
Past, Present... And the Future.
Now, I want to make one thing clear. My life, right now is awesome. I have no regrets, I love the people in my life, and I love the way my life is going.
That being said, everyone has a past. Everyone has that one person that they just never want to see or hear from again... And that, my blogger friends, is just a fact of life. But, sometimes you realize that the past is the past, and that is where it needs to stay. When we mix the past with the present it never ends well. And that is why I have decided to be happy with my Present, and look forward to the future. My life is as good as it's going to get, and the decisions I make today influence the decisions tomorrow, so on and so forth.
The past will be there forever, I can't change that. I can't change the decisions I made yesterday. But I can change the decisions I make today, and by doing that by default, changing the decisions I make tomorrow. And that is what we should be doing. Not looking back on what we could have done, but looking forward to what we can do. Then doing it.
I hope this has been helpful, but basically I'm preaching to myself. :)
So, I'll end with this. Learn from the past, don't stay stuck behind in what you can't change. Instead make an effort to change what you can change.
So, recently there have been a few deaths... Both of these deaths were young deaths. I'll spare the details and the names. But it kinda just hit me that death can happen to ANYONE. It is devastating when it happens to someone who is younger than 68 it seems. If a 40 year old dies it is said he/she was "to young"
Honestly, age has nothing to do with it. Age is a number. That's it. It's how you live your life that counts. Leave a legacy. That's what it's all about. It's about weather or not you jumped out of the plane when you got the chance. If you laughed and played when it was important. If you danced even though you know you're a horrible dancer. If you hugged when it was awkward. Things like that. Become the person you want people to remember. Be the you that you want to be. Someone people can run to, and not be ashamed. Be that person. And Don't be ashamed to BE YOU! Be you, and you will never regret a thing.
Life is short. So, live it well. Don't waste time. Keep busy. Leave your legacy. Never be afraid. Live. Follow the Light.
Your faithful writer AJ
To those who were lost. May your deaths not be in vain. Rest In Paradise, we will meet you on the other side.
Ok, so I was doing some work on the blog. Looking through some old posts, reading comments... All that fun stuff. :) But anyway, I came across my post a LONG time ago called When God writes a Love Story. I remember being so convinced that that boy and I would be together. I remember trying with every fiber in my body to make a difference in his life, and get him to love me as much as I loved him. But the truth is, that he just didn't. And that's ok. I'm not going to tell you that I hate his guts. I'm not going to say that he "Played me". I'm not going to tell you that it was a horrible experience. And I'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it. Was there a time that I did feel this way? Yes. Absolutely. I am a girl. I am human. I believe that everything happens for a reason. So, when he broke up with me, I was horrified. Yes. I was extremely distraught. I cried oh so very hard for days. It took me over a year to get to the place I'm in now. I wrote more songs than I care to admit about how I wish I could get him back, how horrible of a guy he was, how upset I was, how in love I was, and anything else I was feeling. I felt let down, I felt pushed to the side, and I hated that. I knew that he was what I wanted, but he didn't want me. And do you know what? I've had a revolution. Hold on... This is going to take a bit of settling. Are you sitting down? Are you ready to hear this? Are you sure? ... REALLY sure??? Ok...
Push play on This ^ before looking at the pics. :)
I spent a LOT of time trying to fit these^ pictures to the words you're hearing... But I'm not sure if it worked or not. :)
So...^ There's the bridge picture. :)
Anyway, I realized that it's ok. :) I can't complain about what happened. Was it a really bad experience? Yes. And it crushed me. But after every rain storm there is a... C'mon, you know this...
That's right... A rainbow. :) And rainbows are great! Let me tell you... :) They symbolize so much. They take a broken looking, sad thing. And turn it into something amazingly beautiful. :)
I've had my own personal experience with "rainbows". You're thinking... C'mon Ayballin... We all have seen rainbows, it's not that exciting. :) I mean... Their pretty, but you see them, and then you just kinda know there's a rainbow there.
And, yes. That is true, but I'm talking a metaphorical rainbow.
Sometimes I guess you just realize that your life is awesome. You're life even though it's not easy all the time, it's alright. And it's awesome. :) Everything falls into place, everything will turn into what it is supposed to, and I can't complain. :) I'm actually very happy. I look back today and think wow, I am so much better off. I don't need anyone to make me happy. I have music, I have a career, I have a life. And I am happy. When the right guy comes, he comes. But for now... I'm just fine. And life is good. :)
Sometimes you have to take a step back from everything and think to yourself "Life is good."
Life is amazing
Life is a Journey
And, we all look for our rainbows.
Anyway, Good luck. Hang in there. Find your rainbow. Weather that is your true calling in life, your true love, or a church who will accept you the way you are. I wish you well, and that you find your rainbow. :)
Your faithful writer A J.
I love you all, Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. (I know it's long...)
So long! Fairwell!And everything else they sing. :)
Ok, so On May 31'st my wonderful boyfriend took me to see Maleficent! This is awesome because we're both Disney fanatics. :) And it was AMAZING! I'm going to try not to spoil anything... But GO SEE IT!!!!!!!!
The amazing Disney people took this.... ^
And turned it into this...
And that's just amazing. The brilliance in the character is just amazing. I love the relationship that builds between her and Aurora, and the idea behind the whole movie.
So, just go see it. Go out and see it! I mean it. Do yourself a favor.
So… Everyone has a past. Right? And, obviously, there are going to be some things that you regret, and some things you enjoy. Some things you cry over, some things you rejoice over. Some things you get mad at, some things you laugh at. But all in all, we have each led a pretty decent life. Yes, some bad that you would like to regret. But still, not bad. As most of you well know, there was this guy: Who will stay "un-named". And he basically put my heart through a shredder. Am I grateful that he did now? Yes. Because I ended up with something much better for me. Anyway… That said, I'll continue on my rant. :) For some reason unbeknownced to me, my ex-boyfriends web sight popped up in my browser as my "Most viewed" ( Probably because I sank it to my old email, and everything is old on here ;) ) AAANNNYYYWAY!!!… I was curious to see if he had updated his sight since we broke up, so I took a look, and he had gotten rid of his blog. It was NOWHERE to be found. I even searched for it through "GOOGLE". But it was seriously NOWHERE!!! Anyway, I was a little distraught. I knew that he had a lot of his life saved on that thing. Not just our relationship. And this got me thinking. There is a lot of our lives on the internet nowadays. As you can see "here" . Anyway, I'm not against staying up in the times, or finding a new thing to absorb your time into. There's " Facebook, Twitter, Linked In, Pintrest, Google, Instagram, Flicker, MySpace, Tagged, meet up, Meet Me, and Classmates." (Just to name a few. ;) ) So… My thought is "If we are going to spend so much of our time investing in something on the internet, for the world to see… Shouldn't we at least have the common courtesy to not just let that part of our lives go down the drain with a click of a button? When I got dumped, the first thing my mom said to me was "Don't go through deleting things you will regret deleting." And that is some sound advice. That's a piece of your life. Don't throw it away. It's easy to delete something. Not so easy to get it back. And when I'm older with alzheimer's, I would like to look back at this blog and remember who I was, what I did, and who I was friends with. Even if the friendships didn't last long. I want to look back and think I'm friends with the whole world by logging into my Facebook, or whatever the new thing is that day. :P
I'm just saying… Isn't it kinda silly to work hard at something, and throw it away later?
It doesn't make sense to me. Why delete your life away?
Crazy.
Anyway… :P That's the rant today. :)
Your faithful writer A J
Talk to you later!
