Maleficent/ Date night

Ok, so On May 31'st my wonderful boyfriend took me to see Maleficent! This is awesome because we're both Disney fanatics. :) And it was AMAZING! I'm going to try not to spoil anything... But GO SEE IT!!!!!!!!

The amazing Disney people took this.... ^

And turned it into this...

And that's just amazing. The brilliance in the character is just amazing. I love the relationship that builds between her and Aurora, and the idea behind the whole movie.

So, just go see it. Go out and see it! I mean it. Do yourself a favor. 

Your faithful writer AJ

Why delete your life?

So… Everyone has a past. Right? And, obviously, there are going to be some things that you regret, and some things you enjoy. Some things you cry over, some things you rejoice over. Some things you get mad at, some things you laugh at. But all in all, we have each led a pretty decent life. Yes, some bad that you would like to regret. But still, not bad. As most of you well know, there was this guy: Who will stay "un-named". And he basically put my heart through a shredder. Am I grateful that he did now? Yes. Because I ended up with something much better for me. Anyway… That said, I'll continue on my rant. :) For some reason unbeknownced to me, my ex-boyfriends web sight popped up in my browser as my "Most viewed" ( Probably because I sank it to my old email, and everything is old on here ;) ) AAANNNYYYWAY!!!… I was curious to see if he had updated his sight since we broke up, so I took a look, and he had gotten rid of his blog. It was NOWHERE to be found. I even searched for it through "GOOGLE". But it was seriously NOWHERE!!! Anyway, I was a little distraught. I knew that he had a lot of his life saved on that thing. Not just our relationship. And this got me thinking. There is a lot of our lives on the internet nowadays. As you can see "here" . Anyway, I'm not against staying up in the times, or finding a new thing to absorb your time into. There's " Facebook, Twitter, Linked In, Pintrest, Google, Instagram, Flicker, MySpace, Tagged, meet up, Meet Me, and Classmates." (Just to name a few. ;) ) So… My thought is "If we are going to spend so much of our time investing in something on the internet, for the world to see… Shouldn't we at least have the common courtesy to not just let that part of our lives go down the drain with a click of a button? When I got dumped, the first thing my mom said to me was "Don't go through deleting things you will regret deleting." And that is some sound advice. That's a piece of your life. Don't throw it away. It's easy to delete something. Not so easy to get it back. And when I'm older with alzheimer's, I would like to look back at this blog and remember who I was, what I did, and who I was friends with. Even if the friendships didn't last long. I want to look back and think I'm friends with the whole world by logging into my Facebook, or whatever the new thing is that day. :P
I'm just saying… Isn't it kinda silly to work hard at something, and throw it away later?
It doesn't make sense to me. Why delete your life away?
Crazy.
Anyway… :P That's the rant today. :)
Your faithful writer   A J
Talk to you later!

All the new stuff!!!

Hey, guys! :) So... It's been a while, but I wanted to update you on stuff!!!

So... I got my tattoo...

Brand new Macbook Pro! :)

And Last but not least... My BOYFRIEND!!!!!

So.... Now that you're up to date... :P

Anyway, I'm getting ready for school... Buying clothes... Getting new SHHHTTTUUUUFFFF.... :P 

My parents are super understanding about everything :) I'm so grateful about EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

So, yeah! Be watching for updates, because it will be lots easier with the mac now. :)

Thanks for reading!! 

your faithful writer

AJ

The "Heck No!" Bucket list

This is a list of all the things I hope I NEVER do. Like... EVER! :P I was thinking about putting my bucket list, but I figure... That's boring. Why do I want to write about all the things that I want to do. But probably won't be able to do. Because, let's face it people... when you're actually rich enough to do most of the things on your bucket list, you're going to be so old that they won't even allow you to jump out of the plane thinking you're going to have a heart attack on the way down instead of pulling the string in order to survive.
Imagine that though! falling out of an airplane being the last feeling you ever feel... That's just terrifying. I don't know about some of you... But terror is DEFINITELY not the last emotion I want to feel! ( Side note. I'm not afraid of heights. I'm afraid of falling. I like to look out of the window at a plane, but I HATE the idea of "If I jump right now... I could meet Jesus today!" Lol. D: < But for real though...) I want to feel something my last moments on earth. But terror is not an option... hopefully.
 So, because of the fact that I think bucket lists are just a little cliche, here is my "Heck No!" Bucket List. Hope you enjoy!
1- I never want to commit murder. (This is just a "No-Duh!" thing not to do to lighten the mood. :) )
2- Have a baby in an elevator. ( But for real though... Picture this. Husband: " PUSH!!!!" Elevator: "Ding!" )
3- Watch the colorized version of "It's a wonderful Life" ( It's pretty as it is. Leave it alone.)
4- Take a flying leap... On a motorcycle... Off of a tall building... Into water... where there are rocks... who will crush the motor causing it to blow up... causing you to experience the two worst deaths possible... ( Burning and drowning... BUT AT THE SAME TIME!!!!)
5- Be so ignorant to something and not be willing to change you're opinion even though you admit that you don't really know anything on the subject. ( Even though I'm an american, and therefore lazy by nature. May I never be too lazy to accumulate knowledge into my thick skull.)
6- Name my children any of these. (The link takes you to a list of baby names that are utterly ridiculous. FINISH MY BLOG BEFORE YOU CLICK THE LINK! MINE IS FUNNIER! [I'll remind you to click the link at the bottom. :) ] Thank's for your cooperation)
7- Wear any type of sunglasses other than aviators. (lol... my face has such an odd shape, that's the only thing that works.)
8- Turn myself into a man... ( First off... I have a boy friend. And it'd be awkward. Second off, who does that to themselves on PURPOSE?!?!? Even if you think you're really a guy on the inside. I don't care. Just don't remove you're perfectly good "Sitting Down, Peeing Tool" And replace it with a "Standing Up, Squirting Machine" That's all I have to say about that.)
9- (If you're a guy) Turn yourself into a girl... ( First of... you have already learned to aim that thing perfectly! Why give that up?!?!?! Second off... Why trade your perfectly good "Standing Up, Squirting Machine" For a Boring "Sitting Down, Peeing Tool." Sitting is boring. Just keep aiming like your boy heart desires, and be happy.)
10- Spend $40 million on a broadway production of Spider Man, and expect it to not be one of the most horrible and sad things known to man. ( How can this not be bad?... Spider Man was awesome. Why ruin it? And that's saying something coming from me. I LOVE musicals... but superhero's and broadway don't really mix. More about that here.)
11- Get a tattoo on my face. (Tattoo's can be beautiful things... Don't get them on your face. Just don't.)
12- Get feathers. Implanted into my back. ( This is all that needs to be said. Don't look at this if you're under 14 )
13- Become so angry at anything and everyone so that I can no longer control myself.
14- Have an alcohol problem. (A beer or two here and there is ok (If you're old enough) But, don't run to it from your problems, or to make yourself feel better about the way you're living your life. It's not worth it. Fix your problems, you'll feel better.)
15-  Have this much time on my hands... no pun intended. :P
16- Be this skinny white kid. (Because that's just sad.)
17- Get stranded on an island where the cannibals live. (They eat the one's that aren't one of them first!!!!!!!!)
18- Never play hockey with a Canadian. (This is me.

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19- Drive down the freeway... In reverse... (Just a stupid Idea... But something you would NEVER do.)

20- Become a history professor. ( It's so boring to me... Knowing me we would all be sitting there in my class singing Christina Perri Covers. XD LOL. :) )

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed that! :) I think I did well. I would love to hear you're comments in the comment box!!!!! :D 

as always, like and subscribe! :) I love you all!!! 

(Don't forget to click on those links above! )

Your faithful writer AJ 

See you later! :)

Some of you don't know me...

Hey, people... So, I decided to write a blog about me. Most of you know me as AJ I write this blog, that makes you laugh or whatever... :P But, my real name is Ayballin. I'm a teenager who adores music, God, and her family. Music is what I want to do with my life, and that's why I'm telling you this. :) Music is so amazing... You can speak through tones, instead of words. Or both.
Now, hopefully in the upcoming years, you will be able to hear my music on the radio. That is my plan, and my dream. And I will fight for it until it happens.
But, in order for me to do that, I'm asking for your help. I want you to look me up on youtube, and this sight called reverbnation. And become a fan, and if you like my music ( th music on youtube is much more recent) share it with your friends. I need as many people to know about me as possible. That's why I'm asking you for help. :) So please... Take the time to copy and paste these links, and listen to some videos, and read my bio on reverbnation.

www.reverbnation.com/breath4

www.youtube.com/user/myguitarandme95

Thank you SO MUCH!!!!
Please help me up my internet following...

I'm going to be writing blogs more and more frequently, now that my life is settling down ( alot) :)

Your faithful wirter AJ 
Thanks again!

Sad endings, but happy beginnings.

Hello all! It has been a very, VERY long time since my last post... Since my last post a lot has happened! Lets start with June 11th. My life was as happy as I thought it could possibly get. I had just graduated High school, and my life seemed to be on track. I was planning my wedding, I was planning my life the way I thought God wanted it to go. But, then I was thrown a curve ball. My boyfriend called me up, and the first thing he said to me was not "Hey, how are you doing today?" or "Hey, do you have a minute to talk?" He said "We're breaking up." My world suddenly fell from the high it was on. Plummeted to the ground like a meteor falling from the sky. And, being me. I replied "No, we're not." and hung up. Lets get one thing straight from the beginning. If you have the guts to come over to my house, and ask my father permission to date/marry me someday.You should have the guts to come over, and break up with me face to face. The only reason you have for breaking up over the phone, is if you are in a different state/country and can't afford to fly out to do it like a man (That goes for girls as well. Give the guy the dignity of telling him to his face it's not working.) After that call, he called over and over and when I finally answered, I yelled at him. I went to my house and cried. Because my life as I knew it was over. The life that I was so proud of, so sure of. Was all broken in one single phone call. I tried to write a song, and I couldn't think of any words to put down how I was truly feeling until 3 months after the fact. Usually I can write anything, anywhere. But this was different. This made the words never come. I truly loved him. And I knew I always would. He will always have a special place in my heart. And I am still trying to remove him from the space he doesn't deserve. A couple weeks went by and I was no longer crying myself to sleep on a regular basis. And, I was planning my first concert! (Which went really well by the way!) My aunt and I went out and printed posters, and we were out hanging them up when I ran into one of my really old friends! I knew him when I was 12, but we had lost touch, and hadn't really talked. But, when we ran into each other, we spawned an awesome friendship! And I consider him my best friend. Him and I both knew that we liked each other, but we didn't want to mess any of the friendship we had up. So, we shut our mouths. We didn't want to make the other feel awkward. He insisted that he didn't have a crush on me. But I knew otherwise. All the while, our friendship was growing stronger and stronger. I realized that I was telling him all my problems, and ranting and raving to him about EVERYTHING! And that he was doing the same to me. We started to rely on each other for spiritual encouragement, and just having fun hanging out. I started to see that he and I had so much more in common than Ben and I ever did, and then I realized something a little upsetting even to me. I started to love him. Not just the mushy gooshy kind of love either. (Of course there's that too) But, I love him as a person, I love what he stands for, what he believes about life, God, Music, and other important topics. I love spending time with, and I love who I am when he is around. I feel like we push each other to greatness. Instead of holding each other down. Anyway, that's not the point. I guess the point is. I learned, that even though I was so upset about loosing Ben. I gained something much better than Ben could ever have been to me. And for that I'm grateful. I learned how to love fully, and I learned that even though I thought I was following God's plan, I wasn't. I was following my plan. Believing what other people thought instead of listening to my own beliefs. Knowing things wouldn't work looking at the facts. So, now I am looking at the facts, seeing that this other guy and I have a much better relationship. And that I will be truly happy. So, thank God for sad endings. Because they usually lead to happy beginnings.

Your faithful writer A J

Yes... I love him.

Ok, it's been a while I know. Very sorry... I hope you can accept my appologies and keep reading my blog! :)

       Ok, I'm going to hit a hot topic right on the head. And I know that many teenagers in a commited relationship struggle with this, so I'm going to blow this out of the water.

I can't count how many times someone has told me "You don't really love him." Or "You shouldn't say that and raise his hopes." Or "You don't even know what love is." ... The list goes on.

            You know... I do.
I do love him. It's not just a crush anymore. We have been  through thick and thin, hard times, fun times. And guess what? Even when I'm trying to point out how wrong i think he is, and why I don't agree with it. I STILL LOVE HIM!

And I'm not raising his "hopes"... Seriously, what does that even mean? Just because we end every conversation with "I love you." doesn't mean that I am dragging him through our relationship.

"you don't even know what love is." I won't lie, this is the one that irks me the most. And I'll tell you why, just stick with me... :) 1Corinthians 13 states very clearly what love is. And If you haven't heard of it, I'll state it off for you. (1 Corinthians 13:4-10 ESV) Love is patient and kind, lve does not envy or boast; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes the partial will pass away."

OK... shouldn't what God says love is, be what love is? If you disagree, please comment below I would love to see your insight on why God is wrong.
If you believe what God says about love here, then it's free for all to see. And EVERYONE knows what love is. God didn't hide this "secret truth" about marital love for only those "special enough" to receive it. How you love someone doesn't change. It is stated clearly "Love IS..." Not "Love could be..." This and this and this.... "Depending on the person. " No. You are commanded to love everyone. No, you don't have to "LIKE" them, but you have to love them. ( That's a whole other argument though... we won't get into that.... Today... :P )

When I tell my boyfriend that I love him, it's basically me saying " I know I'm not perfect, and I might fail horribly sometimes... But, I will try my hardest to make 1 Corinthians 13 what you think of when you think of how much I love you. And also know that I could never love you or be as perfect as the God who created the love itself. Let me help you toward knowing who loves you the most better." That is what I hope he hears. Do you really expect me to sat that long speach every time we say "Goodnight" or "Goodbye"? No. It is easier to be lazy and say "I love you."

The point here is, I do love him. And it's not that big of a deal to say that. If I don't say it, how will he know? He wont. That is why I tell him I love him. Because I do, I love him. And he says he loves me back. Which I hope is true, because I see 1 Corinthians in the way he acts toward me. So, yes. If you were curious I do love him. I try my hardest to be patient, and kind, and everything else 1 Corinthians just said. And if he does the same, then we love each other, and it's ok to say that. We shouldn't get told that it is wrong for us to tell each other that. If it is true, then we aren't doing anything "Illegal, Immoral, Unethical, or AntiChrist." ( Thank you Brother Don...) And thereby it is not wrong.

Thanks for reading my very,very long rant... :)
Yours (sometimes) faithful writer A J
Till next time... Who knows when that will be... :)